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I’m not big on New Years resolutions, but I feel like I have to put out good thoughts and set goals for the new year so they can become a reality this year. Im generally not a pessimistic person but I’ve got to admit that 2018 was definitely not my year. I had some tough family problems to deal with and I’m still seeing the effects of those problems, but I’m happy to start over and let go of the past.
Growing up, my family didn’t make a big deal of the Holiday Season and I remember only having a Christmas tree and presents a couple of times during the 18 years I lived with my family. We had a lot of economic hardships and so I think those childhood memories haunt me now that I’m an adult and I don’t fully enjoy the Holiday Season. I had about a week and a half off work and I decided to take a break from social media and spend time with my loved ones. I didn’t do much sewing over my break and instead I binged watched a Chinese drama on Netflix (Accidentally In Love). I decided to disconnect because I felt sad my Christmas plans didn’t go as planned and I had no motivation to complete a pattern test i signed up for. I feel bad this was my first time I didn’t meet my commitment, but i just felt I had to slow down and enjoy every minute of my break. This time off gave me some time to think how I want to move forward with my sewing this new year.
Last year I learned so much and have met so many talented makers, but I’ve decided to scale down on the pattern tests I sign up for this year. As much as I love the thrill of deadlines, they add stress to my life and that’s one less thing I need this year. During the break I also realized that I have a ton of clothes in my closet that I don’t use and will never use so I cleaned my closet.
My mom sends clothes to Guatemala so I have a few bags to give her and I recycled my fabric scraps at H&M. I was only able to carry 3 bags so I have a few in my car for my next trip, but at least they’re not taking up space in my home.
Just like I cleaned up my closet, I decided to clean up my attitude as well. Moving forward I will make more thoughtful decisions about what I sew and how I can wear it with what I already have. Although I’ve let go of the past, my attitude hasn’t always been the best and truth be told I miss the old me. In the midst of marriage and motherhood I lost myself. I’ve been feeling like that for a while, but a lot of it has to do with my own attitude and deadlines I impose on myself.
If you’re still reading, thank you! I just wanted to get a few things off my chest and declare a great year for my family and I. Over the last few years I’ve shied away from posting photos or updates on my social media because I didn’t want to give the impression that things were okay in my life but I’ve worked hard to keep my family together in the midst of struggles so I have shifted my view. I like to keep a lot of memories and moments private but I also like to see what my friends and family are up to so social media is a great way to stay connected. With that being said, I didn’t take a lot of photos over the break because I left my phone somewhere out of my reach most of the time but here are some I’d like to share.
We may not share the same faith and believes but without God’s help and mercy, I don’t know how I could have dealt with the struggles of 2018. There were definitely some awesome moments, don’t get me wrong but I’m ready for this new year. I’m sorry if I am not open about some struggles I went through, but know we all go through tough moments and we can all overcome them. I hope you all have a great year!!!
Below are some photos of my now empty closet and all the clothes I got rid of. We also visited the San Diego Zoo, Knott’s Barry Farm and spent lots of time with family.